Saturday, October 10, 2015


Wondering when the sequester and embargo ends.  Some departures are like deaths with ghosts who refuse to leave.  Sat through a jones, one of the strongest yet.

Friday, September 25, 2015


I am reminded today of Beethoven's Ninth Symphony, when the french horns pulse with a heartbeat, the harmonies of the orchestra enter as partial phrases which create anticipation, and then the heavens open forth with the voices of humanity.

Sunday, August 9, 2015


An anniversary - marked with watching a trickling stream, sitting amongst trees, climbing a hill, inhaling the sun, filling myself with light, and flying through memories toward the future.

Friday, July 31, 2015


As uncommon as this moon, but not so rare that time stops.

The corpse lies in state and flowers are placed on top.  Words from distant keyboard warriors fill the air and are admired by their disciples. There are no tears - the spirit separated from the body long ago.  Shredded pages slowly drift into the water, and dark ink bleeds to form ghost words.

The smallest flowers permeate the warm air with their heavy scent.  I run through clouds of fragrance and circle back to look for the source.  These jaunts are no longer straight and fast.  The path resembles a string that is looped and slowly twisted back on itself.  My companion is a dog who sniffs from scent to scent, understanding who was present and what happened there.

Rhythms and words are beat into fabric with each throw.  Intentions are imbued into these pieces which will be given away.  There are so many to make, but there may not be enough time.

Friday, July 17, 2015


"Do you want to come along? Let me know, but I need to make arrangements in the next two days."
"Well go ahead, then, because I'm not sure..."

Arrangements are made.  Then news of recognition and acknowledgement is received.  But the awards event conflicts with prearranged plans.  Then news of another opportunity arises. But the window of opportunity nicks into the prearranged schedule.  And the one who was not sure wants commitments.

One hand, then the other, is raised and lowered, weighing the possibilities.

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

New Cycle

"It's great to see you! Come in," she said, greeting me at the door.  She gave me a hug, pressed her forehead against mine, and held my hand as she led me into the house.  Everything looked familiar in the afternoon light.  Fresh flowers were on the table, portraits and art hung on the walls, and wood furniture glowed.  "Thank you for coming to see me.  I don't get many visitors these days, and, well," she enthused, then her voice drifted.

"Where is he? I'd like to say hi," I offered.  She looked at me with a small smile, took my hand, and led me to the kitchen where I saw him seated at the dining table, looking out the window with his back to me.  I let go of her hand and seated myself next to him and looked out, too.  I turned to him.

"Hi, Dad, what's new?"

He turned his head, looked at me and smiled, and said, "Well, hello there.  A nice day out, don't you think?  I love watching the day.  Birds and deer keep coming in so I need to keep watch."  He peered at me.  "Dad? you called me dad?"

"Yeah, hi, you're my dad."  I put my hand on his shoulder and kissed him on the cheek.  "Glad to see you're enjoying the day.  Excuse me a moment?"  I rose slowly and walked into the next room and looked out another window at the same view he was watching.  I glanced across the open door and saw he resumed his gaze out the window.

"It was not easy, a while ago," she said, as she speared her salad greens, trying unsuccessfully to stack them on the fork.  She put the fork down.  A gentle warm breeze brought the scent of heavy lavender to our backyard table.  "But that's because I kept expecting him to act as he was before," she hung quotes in the air with two fingers of both hands.

"I really didn't think you would stay.  It was really difficult between you," I said quietly.

She looked at me with steady eyes.  "There are always challenges.  It's in how you treat them.  I've learned that eventually things pass, and it's easier to let them pass.  Don't have to forgive or forget, don't have to be a doormat, either.  The best thing I learned to do was to be kind to myself.  No one else was going to give me that space.  I learned that over time."

"And yeah, I didn't think I would stay, either.  I did not intend to."  She paused and looked up at the window where he was likely looking out.  "But it was clear that he was changing, and not for a good reason.  So I stayed.   He used to be out all the time, on demand," the quotes were hung in the air again.  "But there are no more calls, no more errands out.  They've gone, and frankly he's gone too, and yet he remains here."  She looked calmly at me.  "This is where part of him landed.  I tend.  And that's what I'm still doing."

Saturday, July 4, 2015

Storm before the Lull

8.5 oz of washed curls takes about 2 days to process.

Washed curls are combed and drawn out into top.
The comb dregs are carded into rolags.

Here we have curls on rolags, next to combed top.

This afternoon the rolags will be spun long-draw.

My TdF might be over in a week.  Nevermind - I just thought of another spinning project.

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Sunday, June 21, 2015


It is the longest day of a long year not marked on a calendar.

Where, in property v. heart, the heart prevails and releases property to holders.
Where senseless acts serve as foils to remind us of what is compassionate and humane.
Where, out of chaos, arise those who value what is offered.

Grateful that the weather, sky, and stars oblige and calm me.

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Night Light

She looked down and saw the full moon cast lines across the floor. When she looked up she saw the blue glow of his computer in the other room.

Saturday, May 2, 2015


Face west as the sun sets, stand at the edge of the water that connects us, and invoke the kinship that we have - unseen yet heartfelt.

Saturday, April 25, 2015

Reaction - Action

Interesting what happens when an event is significant enough to jolt me into assessing the here and now.

Thoughts that are triggered start with the welfare of others:  where is my companion? where are the people I care for?  are they ok?  how can my actions best provide support and assistance to others?

Then it’s about me: what would I have wanted to have done or accomplished? what regrets might I have, and what will I do now to remedy them? what am I doing now, and will I put more or less effort into it, given the priorities that begin to arise?

I typically think about how others might react.  Indeed, some have already run to their place of comfort, away from the unknown potential that was in front of them.   Let them go – let them go.

Rather than have an external event prompt these thoughts and priorities, I resolve (again) to consider this on a more regular basis.

Thursday, April 2, 2015


I've known this for awhile but am now able to articulate that I am and always have been multi-dimensional in disciplines and time zones.  As exhausting as it can be, I revel and thrive in this broad range.

Thursday, February 12, 2015


Absolute space, in its own nature, without reference to anything external, remains always similar and unmovable.

-Newton, I., Principia

Friday, February 6, 2015

Checking in

I awoke from a dream of compassion and companionship, where a friend stayed and helped me draw strength from myself when none could be found elsewhere, when all others gave up and left me.

Layers of morning clouds are highlighted by the sunlight from above, and some from below.  Yet a stream of black wisps travel in an unusual direction - south to north, whereas most of the other masses remain still or very slowly move west to east.  Although it is dawn, the sunlight is orange yellow of sunset, not cold yellow of a new day.

Watching and checking the pulse.